Relationships - Reciprocity

I have this incredible capacity to feel into the person you are, the ache, the mask, the pain, the heart, the beauty. The true essence. And The potential.

I forgive. I listen. I understand.

There's like something in me that says; bring it, bring it all, the realness, the vulnerability, the parts you deemed unworthy, the parts that hurt, that remain hidden, bring it, I'll show how easy it is to love.. I'll show you how easy you are to love. I'll show you that it's all loveable. Every flaw, every insecurity. All of it. All your humanness, bring it, I'll find the good.

This heart of mine has such great capacity, it's intense, I think it scares people, they've never met themselves at this level before, so many people run, keep their distance. Avoid the vulnerability it takes to let this kind of love in.. and yet, we all want it. We just have such trouble taking off our armour and letting ourselves fully recieve it.

My heart aches in that at times, there's so much to give, I have so much to give and even when i try to give it, it stays swirling on the surface, never going all the way in.

I can't control if someone let's it in. I can't control if someone can meet me there. I can't control their willingness to be honest, accountable or vulnerable. I can't control if they open up, I can't control if they sit with me in the discomfort or if they leave.

I let them be, wherever they're at, I let it be enough, I let what they can give, be enough, I just keep loving anyway.

I do have people in my life who meet me there, I do have people that let the love all the way in, that love, nuture and nourish my soul in a way I've never experienced before.✨️🤍

I see this love exists.

I see these connections exist.

I see it's possible.

One thing these connections have in common is we have an ability to face ourselves, to be honest, to be safe for each other. And being safe with each other is like, come bare, come honest, come authentic, come as you are, cry, laugh, scream, you don't have to have it together, it can be messy, I'll stay, not in a desire to fix you, or save you, i know and respect you enough to know you've got yourself, I trust in you and your path and so, I'm here to love you through it. Be a support and anchor when you need it. A calm nervous system, when you need it.

I just can't wait to be met with the same care, the same love, the same depth, the same insight. The same willingness. The same safety. The same desire to dive in fully, wholeheartedly in a romantic connection.

For someone to stay, emotionally, physically, mentally, to show me it's possible. To grow with, laugh with, to play with, to snuggle with.

To just walk beside each other in this life because in enhances both our individual lives aswell as creating something together that'sjust on a whole new level. A relationship where we are both better, more free, because of it. A relationship that feels expansive in all the ways. That challenges us and yet offers us both safety and trust.

There is much I'm growing through, much I'm exploring in my inner world. Understanding parts of me deeper, no longer shaming any of it, not making the way I move "wrong" but continuing to just show up for me in new ways, that respect my heart, and this capacity I have to love. Ways that pour this love into me too, to show myself I've been growing and changing all along and that even in all that, I too, deserve this kind of love poured into me. This kind of safety, this kind of presence, this kind of connection, you know the kind of connection that says "I know you're scared, I'm scared too, but let's stay, let's stay and get uncomfortable and move through this together".

That asking for reciprocity isnt too much to ask.

Reciprocity - In relationships, reciprocity refers to the mutual exchange of support, care, and compromise between partners, where both individuals contribute and receive. It's a two-way street, ensuring that each person feels valued and cared for.

We're all ready for this balance. Within ourselves first and within our relationships. The care and love you give, deserves to come back to you 10fold.

Even in writing this, I'm seeing this pattern in me, this unconscious belief that I need to earn it, that I need to fight for it, prove myself for it, when just me, as i am, is worthy and deserving of this level of connection, love, care. Respect. Full stop.

I am worthy of love, and this safety simply just being. There's nothing I need to do. Nothing I need to prove. Nothing I need to fight for. Nothing I need to convince you of.

Simply existing, being, makes me worthy of it. 🌹🤍✨️.

Love you!

Mel 🦋